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๐Ÿ’€โ™ฅ๏ธ THE HATE MAGNET} WIP SP/M/T๐Ÿ’€

12:40 Jun 15 2019
Times Read: 357


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Ive been up ive been down
Ive been "all around town" in another guys skin
Ive been unsure who I actually am
Ive been all around the weird Domains
As a weird vampire sucker
As a mad soul-pirate
Ive been too close-inside and too close-outside strangers who've been all mine on that level
For a while
The landmines of another's mind
The Lovelessness of another's mind-web
Ive been some kinda Hate-magnet+
God only knows me in life+
Stuck to some strangers Hate-magnet+
His Black-soul+ kinda sticky like a pull
I'm always glued to some Bitchmans-ass
Try so hard to "get it right" in this life
Getting so sore with life
Try too hard "to get back upright"
Struggling each time to get back
Upright again
But I'm gonna "stagger back down again" when I feel called
Knowing they can't care much
Knowing they Don't know much
Sure enough in this life-enough times
Ive trawled through this sticky-ass shit!!


Discontent with my lot in life
I can never stay nor never leave alone neither!!
Ive been Lovers with strangers and ive been strangers to lovers
Ive been all around this life
Combing through my own soul
Grinding-out against Hate+
Hating-out holding-out against Hate+
Being denied and released by stupidass stuff
Trying to find out why
Finding my own Demons+ playing tricks on me
Quietly amusing every man
Weighing out my Soul+

Ive trumped my own Death+
And saved my own-soul
And then lost it again to another soul-sucker
An another Bastard-fucker+
Another soul-fucker
Trapped by another Soul-witch
Tricked-tripped-out by another meanass man witch
Ive had my Soul-fucked
And my own mind
I let them in and then forgot
Forgot I did it and got trapped inside
Ive played with my own mind like a plastic-toy
And ive hurt myself inside
Like branches of the weird tree it just grows
Like thorns ripping in flesh
Religious ecstasy burns through me
Stranger guys go grind on me
They grind me down)
As I pray for more

Falling down again
Crawling down again
Snared by another man-witch+
Ive found my own soul-switch
Like an electric-strip
Some kinda buzz from some kinda pain?!?

Find I'm a punkass Bitch+
When the time is right
I can crawl down below
While others watch me impervious from above
Laughing at my entrapment
Laughing at my entertainment
Laughing at my containment
My own soul likes a laugh on me)
Then makes me touch myself to try put it right
I dream of a cure
To be whole again
Not itching and scratching in my own soul
Not drowning inside my own body

Making a mockery of my life
Bound to this pain in life
Bound to this price of blackened life
While others sit on the pedestal that should probably belong to me
Be mine not theirs
But they taught me this self-sadistic shit+
Or I taught myself it?!?
I concede to my own Dark Dreams+
Or maybe I practise in self-butchery?!?
Self-bastardry....
To give up to them what actually is mine
Sure that it was mine before?!?
beautiful down deep in my own soul so I get lost in a maze of quickening self
Their just deadbeat ass guys I know that
Bad-soul whores+
My Beauty can sustain
Theirs just Dying
I Diein them to find the flame the sparks
The grinder in this life
Black Roses burn like flames
Burn like bad-candles+
As I grind my way out of Hell again+
Trapped by them I know the webs
But tricked-out by my own soul too
Found down again
And sometimes going "Down & out" when it gets real badass
Real badass stained real badass trained
Out of proper-control)

All the secrets
All the badass stuff+
All the Darkness+
I always figured it was mine
That it was for me
That it was God giving me a Gift+
The gift of living partly through others
Distance living and distance dieing+
Finding out on their dying+
In a way nothing gets wasted
My own suffering gets used up
Seized upon my vampires enjoying the stain+

Replicating my own Soul+
From this Bastard-Loss
Their Bastard-Loss+
Is my Bastard-gain+
Through Gods strange gifts
They Don't want me But I can still survive this shit
The shit ive done to myself)
Diy revival from their quick fast denial
Still revive
Can still contrive a somewhat warped-out reality
That can sustain me better than any of their Love+ probably could?!?
If they had any But its all just Bitter+
All just hates+
They sure hate to love me stall+

A stupid ass Bastard to my God+
I can feel myself whopped
I can feel myself whipped
I can feel myself getting "cast about"
I just can't keep away
Even though I want to
I kinda Hate myself that I can't+

The Distain rings hard
Like a hardest slap
I hear it like a refrain
Almost like music
My Bastardized-soul drags me all around the most fucked-up places
Dosnt listen to me
Likes it not even mine?!?
Only God knows
What I'm actually doing when "I'm down"
I'm a Bitch somewhere in places that could be somewhere in some mans Hell+?!?

My Badass Souls drags me-Drugs me "outside"
To quicken me up
To fasten-out the faster pace
"Out of myself" I just hang on the edges
Quietly bleeding
Quietly blending in
With the Deadass shit+ I can feel around me

Pretty sure its just "private sin"+
Pretty sure its Not actually mine
Ive been a dread-pirate
Dreading myself
Ive been a Dead-mans Pirate trying to get some
As I feed off a Deadmans-ass
Taking off-draining off the offerings the favours from their Sins+
Their Demons always leaking off-leaking out
Their Demons+ always giving out
I get mine quick

Not just a surviver
Ive Fornicated on Sin+
Ive been some kind of Deceiver?!?
Ive been some kind of Deliverer?!?
Ive taken what seems abundant about me But then again
It isn't mine
Trying to " get in" and "get off quick" ive always got trapped
Can't believe what guys I know have inside
Can't believe what's inside myself
Can't believe this reality
I'm always headed-back
And back-around
In some Black-bitches trap

Even though the "drop through" brings great "brakethroughs" I still have to bear with Death
To sustain the Great-loss+
The great-gain+ of my own souls Death+
As I writhe about
Somewhere in Heaven+
Somewhere in Hell+
Down Damned-Dark+ for sure
In some way
©OKF


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๐Ÿ’€Destroying Angel/The Lying Angel. ๐Ÿ’€๐Ÿค SK/M/T

02:44 Jun 05 2019
Times Read: 396


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Destroying Angel prelude)
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Destroying Angel
Lying Angel
Angel of true-Darkness decried
The slow-dying whore+
The Dieing-Angel whore
A hater of Gods-plan
Just hiding hate
Come to smash the works of ages
To decry the works of God
Putting pins in hearts
Putting out eyes
And ripping out the hearts of Gods+ children
Black-sicken the still living world
With a hole in the soul you cry out for help to a dying God+
The caste out one(s)
The God who calls all Liars+ can find triumph in you
The God who casts the shadow of Tyranny's+ can find triumph in you
Cast out from the Sinner+ to the beggar you are the lowest of the low
The whore of all whores-
Never unused Or unseated
Bitch of all whores-no price to a plan-no prince to a life
The Gods+ with unseeing clouded eyes can find all triumph in you
The Beast+ of all funeral-pyres
Sacks of ashes await your triumphs)
From a beggar to a bugger to a bastard and back to a beggar again....
Doomed to return to the axis
Pledged to the place of no return
Pledged to be the Deceiver+ of all mankind
Turning women in their graves
Striking us down
Making the world a sick place
I was gravely-misstaken when I met you
Doomed to never recover
Doomed to Bitterly-regret ever knowing of you

The spirit-lamp showed a child of Darkness+
A holder of the Dead mans lamp+
A pale faced man
We welcomed you as a brother
Should have seen the enemy-now see the stranger for life
Who's always been an enemy
Lurking to get in
And who still sustains
In raw-hatreds you still prevail
You still sustain to destroy anyone around you
Anyone who gets in your way
All bleeding torn and gashed lying around beggared and confused in your wake
We are beggared and buggered without you
Living with the fear of raw destruction
We are beggared and buggered within you
No sanctuary remains for those who have surrendered up their Souls
No sanctuary for those who are encountered to Liars and then lead astray
They are lead into there Deaths+
They are lead into your Dept+
Just a Master who constantly accuses and tears away at anything left living
A flesh ripper-sadist of the Lowest-degrees+
Just pain and snares
The wounds left open to be used again
Keeping everyone in jeopardy
Keeping everyone weak

We prayed for a Dark-angel+
Someone to light the way
So we weren't left alone in the Darkness+
Just knawing on hungers and prayers
You came as a Dark-angel+
The original creaction?!?
Before your Sin+ Your gross fall+
your grossed-out Death+?!?
And we beleived our time was come
Our wait was over
Saying it was alright to Desire+
That it was safe to Desire+
To light the candle of Desire&Lust+
That it was between us only
Feeling that it was alright
Feeling that it was right
Feeling it was a right
Feeling it was a light
We believed the lie(s)
That what you were could ever be ours
Or even be here)

Guess the flame was already lit
But it became stronger and I found Dark strength+
To take you-I wanted you to be mine
And I beleived-I didn't doupht that you were mine
I believed you'd be there
I believed in "our" future
I believed you were already mine-sent by the Gods
The one we had awaited....
That you would redeem us in Sacred-Desire+
And open the door to Desire+
Pleasure+ Dark-lust+ Being wanted
I thought it was right to do new things
To be with you
To Sin+
To let it out-to let go
To have courage to do things
To want a man)
You were the teacher and we would all learn
And all be better
Be in a better world
Alive again and the promise fufilled

I still don't know what happened....
Even after the years swam past
And many tears are drenched
The Agony's of crying out
Time seems to have nailed itself shut
Its just got stuck
My mind just won't work
Logic can't make even a dent into reality cause your nightmare overlaps mine
It precedes mine
The eagle wants to fly away
But my mind is just trapped
Your own hell world intersecting with my heaven
Heavens gate should be open But I'm all-fearing of the hell-mouth
The hell-mouth is in you
Your such a Bitch-queen
So poisoned by your vicious style of Evil-lust+
Glitches in my mind as the despise just reruns itself
Cup of hate spilling over
Again and again
Your Bitter-tongue still a snare again)
Your bitter-stench still a snare again
That sticky-black plan
That poison life plan again
I taste your hate again until I'm stained)
Ive stuck my tongue down in the Black-well again
To reign back on myself)

Everyday I wake up to a nightmare
Thinking it was just a bad dream
Not a live reel)
The pleasure was so short But the pain is so long)
I wake up and its gone and I'm okay
But I wake up and its real again
Too real again
Time on a loop again??)
I remember the nightmare was real and you were in it
You were there and you said terrible things and I was there trying)
I was there Dieing inside trying to stop the nightmare
But you had your grip-and you had your bad horse-bitt
And I couldn't stop you
Like someone tore the page in half
Like someone turned my world upsidedown
You became a stranger and a monster overnight
A master of none)

Why you turned against God+ so bad so hard and went into a blinded blinding rage
Smashing all the hearts
The glass hearts like crazy
I kept a whole box
Guess I figured you could see them now)
I figured that you'd like that
Being wanted-being Desired so much in so many ways
But you just went mad at God+
And at me-just for being there)
I am the only-witness to the gathering storms
The horrible hatred
The terror against mankind
Pins and thorns and raging
Blackness thunder and lightening
Knawing cold shadows and angry pain
A Lover+ becomes a stranger within hours)

Calling me a stranger
Calling me unwanted
Taking me for stupid
I just tried then I cried)
Accusing me for being there
But you were the one who pulled us from our world)
You lured us
The craze of hate against all Romance+
Hatred against the Gods-Desires+
Like love was the Sin+ that need be Destroyed
What's wrong with the Gods in you?!?
There all sick beasts and broken dogs

Like I was crazy to have wanted you
Like it was disgusting
And stupid
You were the one who said we should learn
That you'd come to teach us Sin+
And pleasures of love)
Then you were angry as hell
Blackened with hate that we tried
That it was you
How disgusting that I'd tried to talk.....
How bad that I'd tried to care....
How bad that I was still-there
I suckered myself over and out)
I just tried
Utterly in vain-feeling somewhat blinded
And then I was left alone to cry again
Yeah to live a stupid life)

The sky rained tears
And it rained down nails
And it rained down broken glass
You think glass dosnt hurt dosnt cut
When I bleed you just laugh like you have the right
To tare down Gods children+
Just because there's a hole in your Soul+
Because you weren't wanted
Because of evil-shadows
Because of the liar-the Deceiver of all mankind
He put poison snakes around your heart
He put snares in your mind
I see stars
You just see scars
The scars from my life
All the fights that healed over
You just wanted to get at them again
Just using what you find and hating what you've used

I know you were there before
And your be there again
The Evil fire+ never Dies-down till it sickens mind body & spirits
Your always there
Hating God+ with a vengeance
Burning with unclean things
Taking on the world
Telling me you don't care
Still setting up snares.....
Still smashing up hearts
Taring the world apart
Because of your selfish Desires+
Hating on the Goddess
Despising the world
So omnipotent
Not realising the world can give it back
Some of this Despise+
You might end up trapped in the shadows?!?)

You've been there before
The shadow the hidden enemy
The hidden hater
All disaster and tears
All Lust+ and Hate+
All Lies+ and Promises+
All Deaths and all Hates+
But now I know who you are
All these years
The laughing shadow the enemy
One of my Bitter-shadows
The Anti-lover
The Anti-life
The Anti-light
One of my Black-leeches+
Black-killers I tried to burn
Spies and destroyers+
Craving to Destroy+
Hating to Love me-Living to Hate me
Hating to Love me
Hating to leave me
This bitter circle of Bastard-hate+
Hidden from the eyes of womankind
Nothing is hidden from me anymore
I can track you
All our hidden years
Hidden scars-hidden tears
Highs and Lows
The shadow behind us
The lurking stalking Hates+ burrowed deep within our sodden-souls
Just begging for an escape route
An outlet for the twisted routes living inside us
Like angry ropes like angry snakes all coiled-up all oiled-up inside

The stalker-the hater-the lurker
meets the bitter blacked- up back-biter
The angry-whore
The hunted meets the hunter-till I hunt you back
You sub-standard twisted up bastard fucker!!
I see you now!!
An ugly angry shadow
An angry ugly stalker
You laugh at your own sadistic urges
You don't even know what you want Or who you take
Who you mark Or who you destroy
Oblivious and blind
Impervious and blind
Aren't you mankind's oldest-enemy?!?
What the fuck do you feel?!?
Making girls heads reel
My God has Love+ and Hate+
You just have Hate+?!?
You put down Love+ And Life+
You Hate+ ALL humanity?!?
Even those who would Protect+ you....?!?
Fuck you!!!
Lieing Angel+
Dieing Angel+
Cast out from the true Gods+
To bow to the Liar+
Fuck you!!!
Destroying Angel+
Lieing Angel+
Lieing to the caste of God
Cast out-cast down
Run down hard and dying hard
To run to the Liar+
You'll be a stranger forever
A stranger to all men
Even stranger to yourself
Full of Diseases+ your punishment
Because you can't understand the true-Gods+ want some payment
You pay for what you've taken

Just run to the Destroyer+ again
Die in a pool of Decadence+ again)
Feel sorry for your whorestrung self again
Just Lie+ to the mirror again
You brutal Dogbitch
My hatred follows you)

Your own mind a deep pool of Monsters+
Demons+ and Liars+ that you've called your own
You think me the Son of a whore+
Who saves you now?!?
Who sees you now?!?
That your a Bitch-whore to the Bitt
Cry out in Agony's noone hears your name
You blame everyone But they don't hear you
They can walk away and you can stay a Bit-whore
Saddle sore to the Demons you so coveted
Till there diseases eat out your mind
Slave to the pain again
I watch you Die in vain again+
Sad twisted-up witch)
Sad fucked-up manbitch+


Luring Angel+
Lieing Angel+
Dieing Angel+
Your approach was a Damned-lie+
And a Damning-Lie+
Just stupid needles
You just cross-hatched
You just bitt-back
Now I'm trapped-stupid
Half in and half back out
Not getting free anytime soon
Your promise
Your premise
Desire and pleasure and concord
Harmony bettwen opposites
But you Lied wildly+
Vicious Betrayer+
Because you can Love+ no man
Nor any woman
Only can you live and love for your own Black heart+
But its raging
Its a Dark river of hate
A poison well to mankind
It flows through and through
Slave to the Deceiver+
I was slain to the decadent-whore
of your dead heart dreams
Offered to dead-heart Gods+
Your faceless eyes are just ink-wells to hate
Just wells of Blind-Lust+
Your lusting after all the Hates+
All the Despise+
After all the Poisons+ of the mind and tongue
Grossed-out Demons of Destruction+) can feed off your wasted spleen

Slave to the Liar+
You can't see me through the web of Lies+
You can't see me at all through your mask of hate
Losing Angel-whore+
Lieing Angel-whore
Dieing Angel-whore
The Dead-mans ring burns with empty-hate
The Dark-desire was a gift
Your a whoreson
Worship the Father of all Lies+
Die a pitiful Death+
Die a thousand Deaths+
Lie to those who love you
Lie to the God who made you #1st
Losing face of a Dead-ass man in the mirror
Mirror of madness
Mirror of self-illusion

Your handsome visage in this life is torn apart inside
Sometimes still somewhat human outside
Your naked face looks like it could be the Beautifull-lie
The handsome mask/mark of Death+
But your zombie-soul makes you the Dead-mans mark+
Suckered-up whore to the night
Your Dead-mans flesh+ inside of you
Your moving living face mask hides the corpse-marked flesh inside your body+
Your a Deadbeat whore
Suckered-in Bitch of the Nightwatch+
You'll just Die an unclean-Death allover again+
And I'll just watch again helpless
I can't believe you'll never live again
You are the Walking-Death+
No friend to any man
Sworn to rip-us Down
Sworn to take us Down
I'm dying to live now
To escape your mocking laughter
To get out from under-your shadow eclipsing my living life
My living light to get from under....
©K.S.B


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